Another reason to love Elizabeth Warren

From Endo What, Sen Warren and Sen Orrin Hatch are raising awareness about endometriosis. It's about damn time. I didn't know I had endometriosis until after 2 surgeries, 2 removed organs, 2 failed fertility treatments. Imagine if endometriosis could be diagnosed and treated before it had wreaked havoc on my internal organs. All the pain [...]

When it seems like everyone else can get pregnant

I went to Ireland in May for an artists' retreat. It was incredible, inspiring, healing, affirmative. I'm a nomad at heart who's happy to return to routine for a few months and then hit the road again. I made peace with my body while I stood at the edge of the sea and accepted that [...]

Taking it way back: my fertility story – part 1

I assumed that motherhood would be there for me when I was ready for it. When my first husband and I were dating, he asked me if I wanted kids. It was early December. We were 19 years old, sitting in the parking lot of my college dorm, in his Jeep that wasn't fit for [...]

Day off and sweating in the heat

Today I got up at 6am and fed our cats, went back to bed and contemplated going to the beach. Instead I fell asleep, which felt great.  When I got up I did some art work and pulled two really great prints off the printing plate. I also added more to a new painting I'm [...]

Totally embarrassed 

Between this morning's blood work and saying goodbye to the staff, somehow getting triggered to tears in Starbucks and then running into one of my husband's coworkers, and the incessant yammering of my 20-something coworker who has a 6-month old, I lost my shit at work today. Hysterical sobbing. The kind where I feel like [...]

It’s over 

I'm in the waiting room of the blood draw office and it's insult to injury. AF started heavier than ever a few days ago. And yet my nurse has told me that they need a final blood draw to close the cycle and confirm I'm not pregnant.  We met with our RE on Monday and [...]